Be in the moment during beautiful chaos

Sometimes, things happens so fast. Maybe too much at once? How do we embrace throughout the chaos? It happened to me. Juggled way too much, my life was in a fast lane and I realized.. I needed to embrace, count my blessings, and instead of just "chaos" turn it into beautiful chaos. Sounds, silence, beauty and feelings to be connected. I did not want to miss my lessons, and I wanted to cherish the moments to be forever imprinted in my heart. The key is to be in the moment. Stay in the moment. Observe. Reflect your thoughts and feelings. See the beauty. Life is too short and precious. 

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My cell alarm signaled me
My head tune plays “I hear the clock, it's 6 a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been” by Jewel
Nah, I don’t hear the clock. But it is 6 a.m. I do feel so far from where I’ve been meaning I have overcome the past chapters of my life.
I am not done. Just chasing what life offers me and my daughter.

Here is a glimpse of the last two weeks,

My daughter started middle school,
{A vision of me looking at the mirror for gray hair strands}

Not only it’s been a normal transition from elementary for all middle school students, it was a transition from public to private and new school for her. Let's be brutally honest, it wasn’t beautiful start of a ride. Tears and anxiety for both of us. When I was in eighth grade, we got a new principal. She is still at my daughter’s school and she is my daughter's principal, she guided us and helped us during the first week of school. I went to the parent open house. I walked into my classrooms (I went to this school in 7th-8th grade). The community, parents and teachers were all so wonderful. It felt like a family or a village perhaps. My daughter's classmate has a father with a hearing loss. His wife is a sign language interpreter. During the open house, each class was ten minutes.The teachers talked very fast to get as much as information to us as possible. Kindly, she and another lady took turns on interpreting for both of us. It felt a home. Everyone was so nice. Now, its been almost a month and she’s in a good place now where she gained more respect for herself and everyone overall, being accepted by others for who she is, stronger faith in God, and it’s been peaceful. We both are very grateful for this new chapter of her school life.

After morning drop off, it’s time for me to go to work and start the day. My work and my daughter’s school - we are five minutes away from each other. Lots of changes and new opportunities. It’s exciting. However, it can be challenging well a positive word in my head with all scenes playing is ... adventurous/ or adventures. I am already learning every day, I love it. During this time, I try to focus on being in the moment and treasure my time with students to create a positive and fun experiences. We wear same pair of shoes- hearing loss.

I was nominated as champion for Hear Strong Foundation! I have been running a business, prepping orders, ordering more tees, and responding emails. It was very exciting to read an email from Hear Strong Foundation, and I’m excited to be part of their community to help others and deaf awareness!

A family member of mine from East coast passed away and shortly, my father had signs of stroke. He and my mother flew out to attend the funeral. When they returned, doctors tested it was a stroke. During craziness, I continued forward with my daughter and work. People asked me “How on earth I am there or going through this?” I am a person that roll with it, I do have boundaries. My boundary was to stay in the moment and keep going. I’m grateful for my father still being alive and doing the best as he can, every day I count my blessings and thankful that I have another day with him.

Meanwhile, my parents were in Vermont and I’ve been packing and packing two different bags. Right after school on a Friday, I took my daughter to a church for a fun weekend camp. One hour later,my best friend, Brooke picked me up and dropped me off at the airport for me to fly out to California for a social media run. According to my daughter, I wasn't allowed to uber due to safety reasons ;-) On my flight to Burbank , I notified attendant that I was deaf. He forgot when he asked me what I would like to drink. I had no voice. I am slowly getting sick.I embarrassingly croaked “ginger ale”. It was not a pretty sight. He didn’t understand. I wrote it on paper, he remembered. He passed me a note after 30 minutes went by.

{As I am writing this blog outside, brown clouds rolled in with cold pouring rain drops on my body. Desert rain, the smell of desert rain is wonderful. }

From the flight attendant,
“You are truly the kindness person and thank you for being on my flight. You’ve made my day!:-) Can I get you anything at all?”

A quick 36 hours trip of taking photos and spending time with my uncle and his crew; we went to Hollywood Bowl to see Pink Martini concert. A whirlwind of an adventures, rest and rush. Is that even possible? I flew back home (and ubered home)and one hour later, I picked my daughter up.

She was sick with fever. We took three days off until she was fever free and we even went to doctors together, I had to go first for strep test while she watched I gagged. Successful mother moment. Neither of us had strep.
But overall, I felt one hour to next hour chasing, spinning and multitasking. I wasn’t in the moment anymore. I wasn’t living. Being sick reminded me to slow down, set boundaries, live and be in the moment during beautiful chaos. So I decided to juggle my job, business, social media, my own personal life and my daughter's school/priorities in a graceful manner. I was inspired. I was exhausted to have it all in my head to remember everything. We created chalkboards, I put quotes, reminders, important dates and everything on it. My fave part of the chalk boards " A daughter is God's way of saying "I thought you could use a lifelong friend". So true.

My family and I saw "Art of Racing in the Rain" movie. It was a very good film, it gave me lots of perspective on life. Life is short. I am not going to spill the beans on this blog! Overall, it reminded me not to give up, to appreciate and be in the moment.

I try my hardest to be in the moment to see the blessings during the chaos. Guess what? A lady knew I was struggling to get accessories due to insurance. She kindly donated mini mic, phone clip and remote control for my processor (to adjust volumes on my four programs) Truly, I cried. She was so wonderful and took the time to show me how it works. It was wonderful to hear things more clearer. I accidentally switched programs, I heard teacher talking through a microphone in other room. That was exciting! I played my music again on the phone clip (phone clip also connects to iPhone music) “ I Can Hear The Music” by Idina Menzel is playing at perfect time! I was in the moment. I will never forget that.