Another week has gone by already! Here’s to a Thankful Thursday. Since then, I have been busy with work, running my online shop business, raising my energetic, playful, ponderous daughter, and the elf has arrived!
Since my conversations with women in my community this past week, the main topic is “Do it scared” I shared. I continue to choose joy on daily basis since my Nashville trip! Now here is another thing I learned from Christy Wright, women are more fearful, risk averse, and never want to make mistakes twice. She explained fear is a sign that we are doing something bold, and fear is something to face. Throughout our journey, we could practice to outrun fear but will have nerves again at some point. Since I sat in the front row, throughout three days of conference and speakers; I saw speakers rubbing their hands or pacing back and forth anxiously waiting to speak. They spoke very well, you would never know their fears. On their Instagram, their photo would have “Do it scared!”. She said you don’t have to wait until it is perfect timing or if it’s perfect enough. I knew instantly what recent event I experienced on that topic!
When I started the business, it took me few months to look at resources, emails, comparison with companies to get shirts printed, then materials to present my business, I created the website, took photos of shirts, it was ready to be launched! So my parents took my daughter and I out for dinner celebration, my father asked me if I announced my business on social media. At the moment, I did not. Why? I was scared it wasn’t perfect enough, it wasn’t good enough, and what would people think? The next day, I announced it right after work and had to go pick my daughter up from summer camp to outdoor swim lesson in 118 degrees weather. My heart pounded from my chest, my legs shaked, and my hands sweated. I was trying to drive. I prayed. All these calmed down instantly! I did it scared.
Maybe every day, I have to do it scared. Meanwhile, I remain thankful.
I am thankful for my business trip, I learned so much about myself.
Yesterday, I was thankful for food on table, car to drive to work and home. Throughout the crazy evening, (my tireless daughter chasing me around after her math tutoring and had a friend over) she and I played a game she created to see if we think alike and we do! We bonded.
Today, I am thankful for seeing my daughter perform her violin at the concert. I am thankful for my cochlear implant to hear the sounds of instruments and even hear her.
Tomorrow, I will continue to choose joy and do it scared while I will find a moment whether big or small to be thankful.
Hearing Impaired single mother and teacher aide at a hearing impaired oral preschool program. An author of "Turn The Lights On, I Cant Hear You".